Valentine's Day

Inspired by:

“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

Jess: You know what? I'm done with all of your bullshits and it's have always been me who try to keep this relationship going. I have done almost everything I can to make you stay but you seem happy to see me this way. Don't flatter yourself with the title "boyfriend" you have on me and I'm not gonna comfort you with this love I have for you either. 

Pete: But..

Jess: You're asking for hell so I guess that's what I shall give you? Or no? My best was never good enough to you. You put me in a state where if I stay, I'll be in a misery of your silence but if I leave, I'll be in a misery of wanting to have you in my arms again. Don't do this to me, what did I do to deserve such?

Pete: Okay, if that's what you want. Then leave.

Jess: I didn't say anything about leaving. Wait, what? That's all you can say? After everything we've been through? Am I even matter to you now? After 4 freaking years?

Pete: Jess..

Jess: Pete, I have no one else in this world that I can lean on. But don't mistake me when I tend to put you in every single thing that I do in life because I love you. You have given me all the love that were supposed to be coming from my parents. You're even better than my shadow that leaves me in the dark. Don't do this to me. What happened to us? Has the feeling faded away? 

Pete: How do you expect me to explain when I didn't even get to talk? I need you to calm down and breathe.... and shut.

Jess: Okay.

Pete: Never have I had the intention of letting you go. Not to mention, a faded feeling. I still love you everyday and I'm sorry to let you think that way. But I have some issues going on and I don't think I have the guts to share about it now. I mean, look at you. You can't even handle yourself, how are you going to handle me?

Jess: But I'm your girlfriend. You know every detail about me. Pete, I lost my parents 3 years ago. You were there. You have witnessed all the sorrow days of mine so let me in. Let me in, Pete. It's my turn now. I thought we're supposed to practice the "gives and takes"?

Pete: There's a solid reason behind this decision I've made. I love you. This pain I'm dealing with can never be compare with anything. You don't need this. Because trust me, something is coming for you. Until the day come, let's not think about it. 

Jess: But you have been acting so differently. This is not something I want to deal with too. You can't leave me puzzled. It's not fair.

Pete: I'm sorry. I really love you but lately, I just feel like being alone. That's all. I just feel like it. I need some space of my own, so I can think rationally and stop hurting someone I love.

Jess: I'm sorry about what I said earlier. Help me to help you. Practice what you preach, baby. Don't push me away.

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Relationship is between two. Not three nor four.

Good evening! 

I hope everyone is having a good Thursday because it's really humid here in Kota Damansara, just the way I like it. Um, I had a long, super long talk with my friend just now. But something happened so I guess I'm gonna share about it here with you guys. Best friend is always the best person you can lean on everything. Is it true? No! Yes, you can spill all of your problems to your best friend especially when you are having a hard time with your family or your friends. But never have an idea of sharing your relationship problems or your relationship will never be saved but becomes more brittle or probably can lead to split! How is that possible? First, you need to remind yourself that you know your partner better than anyone else does. Because you're the chosen one. He has chosen you as the person that he is willing to spend his whole life with (InshaAllah, with His consent). So imagine if your relationship is being tested, the storm hits you out of the blue and you have no where to confide. Coax yourself. Coax yourself to not seek for a man's help but Allah S.W.T. In this case, best friend can do nothing but ask you to be strong or even worse, to call it quit. 

"What? Who says? My best friend will definitely give me a hand or the least she can do is by giving me advices. I know I can count on her" My answer is still a huge no no no! Expand your mind to the widest. You have been through hell yet so many good days with your boyfriend. From one year to another year. But suddenly, rain falls to the earth and covered the sun with lightnings and thunders. Consider you and your partner as the rain and your best friend or whoever it may be as the thunders and lightnings (*) It's you and him who have the power to grow a garden. Not the minor characters in your love story. How can they help you? They don't even know your boyfriend's favourite song, your boyfriend's favourite food or even his favourite colour. If you ever share your problems with them, they would not see it as the way you do. No matter how mad you are towards your boy, there's always a slight of love embedded within the pieces of your heart. But not them. You'll poison their mind by the stories you tell. You'll plant hatred in their heart and you'll expose the bad image of your boyfriend. They'll give you advices from what they see on your boyfriend, which is coming from you. They'll give advices that have been compounded with anger. "I can't believe he did that to you. I don't know. Maybe you guys should talk. I never thought he could be blabla" Are you tough enough to handle the "I can't believe he did that to you" or maybe "I'm sorry to hear that. I love you, you are my best friend so maybe break-up is the best thing now" Besides, are you willing to reveal the evil side of yours too? Would you tell them how much you have hurt your boy? How many times you have screwed up? No. I believe most girls nowadays will tend to "I've done everything for him. But he still breaks my heart and I feel like an idiot" Free advice: If you really want to let them know how bad your boyfriend is, make sure you tell them about your dark side too. Take it or leave it.

I'm not saying that your best friend's advices are pointless and bring no good. Some friends can be really matured in giving you words to swallow. But remember, it's you who have faced the ups and downs with him. They will never have the idea of how happy he has made you feel, how protected you are when you're with him, how every night you have wished to spend an infinite life with him. Back when I was young and dumb, I used to share every single problem of my relationship with my best friend. It all ended up devastating and I felt worthless. Because rather than follow what my heart says, I chose to mixed all the opinions given. Too much opinions can turn into a disaster because the result was nothing but a mistake. What can be worse than hanging out with your boyfriend and friends (but) knowing your friend is having a bad impression towards your boyfriend?

Enough with the figurative now, what I'm trying to say is, always follow what your mind / heart says when it comes to relationship. Even if  you have to argue and cry and shout or yell, let it be you two. Only between you two. When two persons are meant for each other, they will always find their way back together. Because you know your boyfriend or girlfriend better. From the tiniest little thing to the biggest. You have digested them all. The only person you can refer is, a best friend who considers not only you but your boyfriend too, as her/his bestfriend! Because they can read both sides of you and your boyfriend. They'll be fair in helping you two of what to decide.

This is just my two cents; You can always create your own way in handling your relationship and make it work. Or even better, to start new. Either marriages or couples.



“So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook


“Every couple has ups and downs, every couple argues, and that’s the thing—you’re a couple, and couples can’t function without trust.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight


“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book. And then there are books like An Imperial Affliction, which you can't tell people about, books so special and rare and yours that advertising your affection feels like betrayal” 
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars


Batrisyia Naser, 11:00pm.